||[Dec. 11th, 2004|04:28 am]
|||||something on my computer, wasn't paying attention.||]|
lol, again, just some f'd up thing from the stank corners of my mind. Anyways, the first log I put in today, I started on a glass of rum and coke and now that glass is done. Damn that shit hits me hard. Anyway, During the depressed stage of drunkeness I wrote this poem. You can tell I was getting to "happy drunk" near the end.
Not my reflection
I walk down these streets that are supposed to be life
the farther I walk, I lose more of what keeps away the knife.
As I go, I see someone, someone new, yet someone forgotten.
I just wish that I could drown in a cloud, this pain that I have gotten.
From the corners of my eyes I see something in the light
Past the darkness, there is something that survived the fight
Something that reminds of the innocence and purity
something long gone, the last shred of sanity.
I look at this man I see before me
why couldn't I just let things be
I like the way things are
yet I feel so alone and far
away from what I was before
Please, fate, knock at my door.
I have tried to become what I wanted
Only now I realize it is what I hated
Where do I go from here
Do I stay with what I fear
Or do I resurrect what is lost
But, to me what will be the cost
Either way, I'll have fun
No matter when all is said and done
No matter what, I'll be here waiting and waiting.
But will I continue fearing and hating
Time will tell, so here I sit.
I think I'm fucking done with this tokers fit.
Personally, I like the end line. hehehe. Anyway, Take no caution about the first line people. I may be an idiot, but I'm not stupid. lol. Peace people.