?

Log in

Hey [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
personaljudas

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

Hey [Aug. 28th, 2006|01:53 am]
personaljudas
Wow, It's been over a year since I last wrote in here. I was just reading through my old posts and realized how much has changed since then. I've held a steady job at Stanpac (aka hell) and getting paid decently, I now own my own car which will most likely fall apart any day now. As for the g/f situaution. Well just found out some news about some body that I have liked on and off for quite a while. The question is do I take the chance and see what happens and that it will work. Or do I not even try and possibly regret it further down the road. I already know what everyone elses opinion is without even asking, but yet I think I should give it a shot. Yeah, what the hell.

P.S. Man I was fucked.
link1 comment|post comment

Hey [Mar. 28th, 2005|05:48 pm]
personaljudas
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[music |silence]

Well, Hows it going.

Went to work today. :-D. First day is always a pain. lol. And I hurt. ouch. But it's a nice kind of hurt. Knowing I am actually doing something. lol. And to anybody that doubts me, no I'm not quitting just because it's hard work ya dumb fucks.
Peace.
linkpost comment

HELLLOOOOO [Mar. 10th, 2005|02:49 am]
personaljudas
[mood |chipperfucken right doggy]
[music |Tippity tap of the keyboard]

Hey.

Well, I'm proud of myself and feeling somewhat like an idiot. Ya see, I did something to my xbox last week and thought I may have had to buy a new one when I actually have the money to do so. But I fixed it and then realized I could have avoided all the frustration if only I had written down one stupid number proplerly. OIY!!! Anyway, Hoping to get a job within a week. Yipppeee!!!

CFN Ciao For now.
link2 comments|post comment

Well, I'm still here [Feb. 23rd, 2005|04:20 pm]
personaljudas
[mood |okayokay]
[music |MuDvAyNe - Happy]

Hey peoples. Damn it has been ages since I've gone on here. I was just looking through some of my old logs and I must say, I was fucked up. lol. Still am, but not so much. Anyways, umm, still no job, no g/f. Oh well, all things come to those that wait....or you know, do something about it. :-) Anyways, I've taken up a new hobby. Modding X-boxes. Damn, mine is damn cool. hmmm, too many damns. Ummm, also hoping to go back to that blue ghost tunnel this weekend. If I'm lucky, A certain someone will be coming with us and I'm going to tell her how I feel. I hope things go well with that. Anyways, I'm out for now peoples. Ciao
linkpost comment

Wow it's been awhile [Jan. 3rd, 2005|12:24 am]
personaljudas
Hey

Well, it's been awhile since I added anything to this. lets see, came to a certain choice. Lets hope it goes well. umm, me and my ex g/f talked and I think we are cool. However some things got me off guard but it's all cool
Gotta go for now, later.
link1 comment|post comment

HAPPY HOHO [Dec. 24th, 2004|09:48 pm]
personaljudas
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |Radio something]

Hey

Well, its christmas eve and my computer is finally working. Thats why its been a bit since Ive been on here. Anyway, updates, umm lets see. Broke up with the girl I was with. Things just werent working. Ummm, not so depressed anymore, so yippeee. Also finally, I came up with a new theory. I shall have to put it in in my next post to this. Anyway, got to finish fixing the computer. Thats gonna be loads of freaking fun. lol. Then wake up tomarrow and Voila! presents for me, mwhahahaha. Peace people.
linkpost comment

Hey [Dec. 14th, 2004|10:54 pm]
personaljudas
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |Stabbing Westward - Haunting me]

Well, here I sit stuck at home because the van has a flat tire, yippe yay. I'll probly put something in here later. If Ihink of something ingenius or smart. lol. peace.
linkpost comment

Hodza! [Dec. 11th, 2004|04:28 am]
personaljudas
[mood |drunkdrunk]
[music |something on my computer, wasn't paying attention.]

lol, again, just some f'd up thing from the stank corners of my mind. Anyways, the first log I put in today, I started on a glass of rum and coke and now that glass is done. Damn that shit hits me hard. Anyway, During the depressed stage of drunkeness I wrote this poem. You can tell I was getting to "happy drunk" near the end.


Not my reflection

I walk down these streets that are supposed to be life
the farther I walk, I lose more of what keeps away the knife.

As I go, I see someone, someone new, yet someone forgotten.
I just wish that I could drown in a cloud, this pain that I have gotten.

From the corners of my eyes I see something in the light
Past the darkness, there is something that survived the fight

Something that reminds of the innocence and purity
something long gone, the last shred of sanity.

I look at this man I see before me
why couldn't I just let things be

I like the way things are
yet I feel so alone and far
away from what I was before
Please, fate, knock at my door.

I have tried to become what I wanted
Only now I realize it is what I hated

Where do I go from here
Do I stay with what I fear
Or do I resurrect what is lost
But, to me what will be the cost

Either way, I'll have fun
No matter when all is said and done
No matter what, I'll be here waiting and waiting.
But will I continue fearing and hating

Time will tell, so here I sit.
I think I'm fucking done with this tokers fit.


Personally, I like the end line. hehehe. Anyway, Take no caution about the first line people. I may be an idiot, but I'm not stupid. lol. Peace people.
linkpost comment

Not so much [Dec. 11th, 2004|02:37 am]
personaljudas
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |Lacuna Coil - Stars]

hey

Well, today has been shitty. Had to go to missasagua to babysit again. Did a 180 when I was trying to get on to the highway. Didn't hit anybody or anything though, so thats cool. Anyway, I just got thinking on the way home about some things. Mainly about the g/f. I'm not exactly sure if this is what I want. I mean, at first, yeah I was cool with the situation, but now, not so much. However, I have thought up some ideas that sound fun at first. But almost everything can sound fun at first. Well, we shall see how tomarrow goes and see what happens. And also, One addition, I need to toke damn it. Tomarrow I might split some more logs of wood, that'll get me busy for a bit and let me do some stress relief. Peace people
linkpost comment

Hey [Dec. 9th, 2004|04:43 am]
personaljudas
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Bring me the disco king - David Bowie]

Well, it's that just a f'n kick in the nuts. lol. Oh well. Lets just say I've come to the realization that what I had wanted is not quite what I had in mind. Well, lets wait and see what happens, shall we. lol. Peace people
linkpost comment

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]